My enthusiasm seems to know no bounds,
Which would be a good thing normally,
However it does take a grip on me,
And leaves my heart open to the world.
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I try so hard to be transparent,
I'm always trying to express myself clearly,
However it seems that always seem to say too much,
And drive the good people crazy.
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There will be a time when I am back in control,
And I won't show my loneliness so openly,
I'm always trying to better myself,
Until then I must learn to be patient and strong.
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I also must learn flexibility in words,
Spoken by others - they are not never ending truths,
I hang on to my understanding of their meaning,
Long after they have faded away.
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My emotion is complex and deep,
I think I am too hung up on the need for love,
Cuddles and comfort are a state of mind,
That I should be feeding myself.
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My mind swirls with words that are better off said,
Long after the sentence leaves my mouth,
For all those good people who hear me out,
I must learn to be quiet so at the right time I can say more.
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Chris,
My advice through tough times is to read and potter on personal projects as much as possible; and also something I've found is that when I pull back from the cosmos, it suddenly begins providing me, but when I'm asking of it, things become obstructive. Send me mail if you need to :)
Rups
Hi Rupert,
Thanks so much for thinking of me. Times aren't wipe-out tough, I just have to learn to communicate better and work on myself. I think I have a crazy habit of speaking directly from my heart without checking my words first. I think that I have some crazy lessons to unlearn. Luckily, I've been doing a lot of drawing lately - which provides a great sense of self satisfaction (and not to mention: distraction). All is good, as I'm living and learning.
Chris,
I do the same thing, and realised that it works exceptionally well in creative output but encourages abrupt confrontation in social/personal circumstances - that's why I say in my head that "I must pull back for a while", as when I'm on a roll I get out-pouring to the point of whizzing off my axis! :)
Rups
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